Alec Badwin admitted he feels “very awkward” in a peculiar Christmas message thanking his supporters around the world.
The actor accidentally shot and killed cinematographer Halyna Hutchins when a prop gun he was holding went off during as he filmed movie Rust in New Mexico.
The 63-year-old previously told a reporter on ABC he cocked the gun that killed the 42-year-old, but said he “didn’t pull the trigger”.
He has now shared an emotional video thanking his friends, family and fans for their support.
The Hollywood star says “not a day goes by” that he doesn’t think about what happened on the set of the film and the impact of the accident on 21 October.
It comes as a search warrant has been issued for his phone in the investigation into the film worker’s death.
Baldwin said he was “just trying to move forward with my life” and felt “lucky” to be at home with his family for Christmas.
In a video posted to his Instagram account, he said he looked forward to “some aspects” of the incident being behind him.
In a lengthy message, he said: “I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to all those people who sent me such kind words and best wishes and strength and hope and prayers and so forth.
“So many great sentiments from so many people, I got hundreds of emails from friends and family and colleagues and people… to send me strength and good wishes. I am very grateful for that.”
“I’m looking forward to some aspects of this being behind me, of course for everyone who’s involved in this it’s never going to be behind us because someone died so tragically.
“I never lose sight of that, not a day goes by that I don’t think about that.”
The film star said being with his wife and children was “the only thing I care about”.
He went on: “I’m just trying to move forward with my life and trying to get through a tough time, a really tough time.
“I feel very awkward, going through this it’s been very difficult and I want to say happy holidays. – whatever holiday you’re celebrating.
“I hope you are as lucky as I am in one department and that is to be home with your family.
“I don’t have anything smart or original to say, just thank you to these people who sent me good wishes.”
Signing off, the former Friends star added: “Be safe, wear a mask, get the booster and don’t let Santa down the chimney without a mask.”